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I guess I should be glad I'm still alive and healthy - and I am, but the high possibility of funerals attended by me rising to 8 in 2 and 1/2 years is...

I won't say, "I can't take this" because I can, but... my mind is strange these days. I can feel this gold hum - like electricity through air or something resonating in my mind, coupled by a slow numbing feeling. I don't know whether this is good or bad. Maybe it's a mechanism for... something--I don't know.

I think I need help on this F-list. Maybe it's just me spacing out too much.